+3 lbs today.

So, I followed the instructions for my day 1 of the 2 day load process. I learned something pretty powerful yesterday. When you have free reign to eat what ever, it isn't that fun when you are stuffing yourself. Also, I love sugar and sugary stuff doesn't always have fat in it. I don't generally eat fattening foods, so when I stuffed myself yesterday (plan to do it again today) I focused on the fatty stuff just like the instructions say. The result, a gain of 3 pounds in 1 day, and a generally crappy feeling through most of it.

All I can say is that this better work, because I wasn't exactly successful with weight loss before and gaining weight in the beginning of a new weight loss process is not only counter intuitive but also a little demotivating.

I am very ready to start my VLCD tomorrow. Got all my goodies ready(food scale, new water bottle, digital scale) and am eager to get started. I decided to take the appetite suppressants, at least for the first week. I have read in a lot of forums that most people have the hardest time in the first week. So, I will start with that and then pull back to nothing if I can. I think that if they are available to me, I should try to be diligent and follow the full process and if appetite suppressants will enable me to be successful, then let's do it.

The other reason for my decision to use the suppressants is centered on will power. I don't think I have much. I am quick to judge myself on what terrible things I consume in a day, sometimes even as I bring the fork to my mouth. But I tend to still finish off the plate of cookies, head to the vending machine in the middle of the afternoon or have that 3rd soda. Weekends are especially hard for me, we generally are running around a lot and hitting drive-thru's. I have become very dependant on the $1 any size Cokes that McDonalds offers, and of course this is after a morning run to Starbucks before my son's hockey lesson.

Yes, I am a little worried about this weekend. Day 1 of my VLCD is on Saturday where I somehow in the midst of crazy have to find a way to maintain my 500 calories and find the strenght to do it again on Sunday.