It is a great day. Total loss (personal count) is 25 pounds. I am buying clothes in the XL(not the 1x or 2x sizes). And most of all.... I am officially less than 200 lbs, my weigh in this morning put me at 198.6. Woo Hoo! Major milestone for me.

I am so excited, I like the 25 lbs, it give me hope that I can keep going and get even more. The new sizes are cool too. I went to Ross last week to look at clothes, I need a couple of tops to rotate in as I have been losing clothes about as fast as I am losing weight. While I look forward to the weigh in every morning, getting dressed is another story. I am changing clothes 2 to 3 times daily. Putting a top on, to find that it is so big that it borders on sloppy - then once removed, it is strategically placed on a shelf out of sight and mind. Yeah!

Under 200 pounds, that is huge and I don't just mean my size. I have been gaining and losing the same 20 pounds since 2000.
-Starting with a surgery that required a long recovery of little activity. +20 (new weight = 205)
-Then once cleared by Doc I paid a lot of money for a personal trainer at the gym and lost 20 for my wedding in September of 2002 (new weight = 185).
-That same year, we relocated to AZ and the stress of the move and my mother in-law being terminally ill, I gain it back (new weight = 204).
-I was over 200 when I got pregnant with Liam in 2004. Did South Beach in the beginning of 2006 and lost 15. That was when we started tracking our weight weekly and the charts after that have a pretty clear cycle of gains and losses every 9 months or so when I would go up to 220 and get on some program (WW twice) and lost about 15 in 6 months and once I stop the program, I would creep back up.

I wonder if the cycle will ever end? I know I should be really happy with my results, I am. But the core problem is still here. Even as I write this and tell the world about my accomplishments, I can't help but think of wanting a reward for my success. Chocolate, food - anything. Scary thing is, I am not even hungry. I need to develop a plan for me, that is unique to my needs. I have read that others reserve 1 day a week for consuming anything they want. I wonder if I can do that? I have 3 more weeks before I go back into maintenance phase. I need to get it together before then. Because I plan on going a full 3 weeks before I start dosing again. Last break, I couldn't make it 11 days before I started eating carbs....